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Wednesday, April 05, 2006

I wrote this on the sep 2004

"Where everyday u struck in the traffic, in mrt , in bus..waiting waiting waiting .. reach the work place , I will give a gloomy face because I had experience an unpleasant ride to work. Everyday. Going to work is challenging at first as there are new things to learn but soon , it get dead stagnant. Like prison. prison better huh? I want a place no one knows me. But seems, interpersonal relationship is so complex that I wan to avoid all. Doing temp job all the place, trying to find bits and pieces of myself.Then I finally know something: I am still young. I have enough time to explore, do the thing that is out of your limit , beyond your imagination. Till a certain period to settle down. 9 to 5 job? lol , u still have ample of time to do that in your life. Boredom scared the shit out of me , this is what I have found in 9 to 5 temp job(any). I just can't stick my butt on thaT same place, same chair everyday.Ok, my brain is on my butt. Torturing man! If we are bold and adventurous, we may indeed encounter the risks & dangers. But then, we would develop stable roots in the ground, and grow tall and mighty. Our lives would be rich & dynamic. Every day would open up fresh horizons for us, and we would taste the marrow of life. If we are overly-cautious and self-preserving, it may be possible to avert certain disasters. But you only need one small 'fly' to finish you off. Even if that doesn't happen, we would live a life of fear and suspicion. We would remain small, incapable of benefiting others with the huge potential for growth that's trapped inside us. And what is a life lived vainly slinking around in the shadows? Try not to take everything so seriously. Relax and have fun, add values to ur life. You will find that situations you thought would be horrible may actually turn out to be enjoyable & a blessing in disguise. Remember that a big part of success lies in your attitude. If you convince yourself that things will be horrible, they probably will be. You are the only one who can make the decision to be happy. Regardless of how you may think, you always have this control.Sure, you'll have setbacks along the way, 'Taking risks is scary, but it is not as scary as standing still for 20 years,' 'How many people do you know who are still caught up in doing the same thing, with the same people, day after day, and talking about 'one day' when they find their dreams to arrive? Ordinary people wait for their dreams to show up, and extraordinary people go out and pursue their dreams. Extraordinary people hold themselves accountable for their choices; their actions; their destination. They don't wait for 'one day' because that day is today.' Life is unfathomable and complex. One way or the other, we cannot tell what will come to pass. Risk does not increase simply because we choose to take it. It is ever present in the same amount, whether we trudge intrepidly forward or struggle to remain where we are.So fuel your dreams with the courage to make them real. Allow your fragile heart to love without restraint in order to make it strong. Acknowledge your ignorance so you will continue to learn. And experience the vibrancy of life so that when it ends, you will not be burdened by regret.'Its true you don't know what you've got until its gone, but its also true you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives.' "

So wat's next for me? After been to disney world been to bahama, these best destination in the world. ... I saw the top 10 destination in the central channel and wat I felt is that "hey, I have been there! That thrilling ride! That beach! that castle! "
I felt like going back ... sob sob ...or shall I move on?
I will nv forget the lst time I step to orlando and head straight to disney land .
The stupidity of not staying on so that I can hang around US for one more month....I can fly to NYC (a must visit if u go US)or chicago to visit my guests, jennifer and christine (jennifer is hot, both sis are hot )or accompany my fellow singaporean friend rachel to visit her aunt..I missed the 2 gals , although they my guest but we had mad time onboard! But ... a one man journey to other states is lonely. I may wow at the complexity of NYC but I have no one to share with. I may think of going to disney world again for free after the contract but....myself????

ok , here's the deal .. wat about backpacking in aus down under next??
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I 'm sick ... whenever I went for interview , they keep asking me .. u dun sound local , can you speak chinese?
I dun believe i slang my ah moh that much after for couple of months ..
i just want to get back my broken english !

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